Dearest Bail....

Letter written by Miya to Bail


My Dearest Bail,


I feel silly for writing to you when we see each other so often, but the things I want to say are hard for me to put into Basic.  Part of the reason is because Basic still doesn't feel "natural" to me yet - Chinese is best for me, with English a close second - but I know that if I say what I feel in either of those languages something will get lost in translation.


So I need to try and convey my thoughts in Basic....in a way to let you sense how I truly feel.


And I need to write my thoughts down, because when I am near you, my senses are befuddled - in such a wonderful, glorious way - just from having you close.  Speech is secondary to simply wanting to be near you.  Your voice, your scent, your touch - they all combine to affect me in a way that no one ever has.  I love every moment of it.


How can one comm conversation, a chance encounter on the comm with two people chatting, alter the destiny of two people so utterly, so wonderfully?  There are times when I think about how much luck came into play that day - had we not spoken on the comm, had we not been on the comm, had either one of us been busy or away....our lives would be so different now.  It kind of scares me, to be honest, when I think about what might not have happened.


But it did happen, and that meeting over drinks led to conversation....which led to more meetings, more conversation...


It is hard for me to believe that those first meetings were only a couple of short months ago.  


I found you to be fascinating, intriguing, so incredibly handsome and sexy.   I couldn't get thoughts of you from my mind when we were apart.  The meetings with you in the evenings were the highlights of my days.  


We were finding that we were kindred spirits in so many ways.  Each conversation led to more discoveries, more reasons to connect, more realizations that we were so much alike.


And then....we crossed the line from being friends to....more than friends.  We fell in love.


How can I describe how being in love with you feels?  It's like describing oxygen: words are so woefully inadequate, but you just know that you have to have it in order to live.


But....I will try.


It's like...my heart was missing beats before I met you.  My soul is at peace when you are near me.  When you are close by...the air is sweeter....my eyes see more beauty...


You simply enrich every part of my life, just by sharing your life with me.


Your cause is my cause....your life is my life....we live as one because together we are stronger and better than either of us is alone.


And I love every minute of it.


Wo ai ni, chaoren.  I hope this tells you a little bit about how I feel.